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oh, to be alone for long stretches of time! to not have other people changing your pattern of thought! to sit for hours and wonder, “why, why, why?” and have no one give you an answer! it’s wonderful. there is no limit to what i can possibly imagine and create in my silly little head. the thoughts get more and more crazy as i have no one to bounce them off of. the questions search deeper and deeper. soon enough i’ll be at the center of it all. won’t that be scary!
to have another language running around in your head for days! to listen to someone say something and then repeat it over and over again! oh, to not understand simple phrases like, “what does your mother do?” absolutely wonderful. it makes you feel like a child. there is so much out there for all of us to think about and learn. there are so many barriers to break down. 80,000,000 vietnamese and they all want to tell me something! think of all of the wisdom! if everyone holds a piece of the puzzle, maybe, by listening, we can finally put it all together!
look at the world around us! see how the leaves dance and feel the wind press the shirt against your back! think about the sky and the clouds and notice how they pass slowly over our lives! as if they watch over us. oh, and think about putting a seed in the ground. a small seed feeds off of the dirt, the muck and the waste of our lives to produce food and flowers! they take all of our crap and turn it into beautiful tomatoes and lima beans! one reason i like food here is because it’s real. the meat is on the bone and there are bits of internal organs in everything. chicken’s feet and cow’s heart. pig stomach (cold) and scrimp that must be eaten with the shell on. it feels like you’re eating an animal and not a mcnugget! isn’t that how it’s supposed to feel?
oh, and then the friends that i’m making here. such wonderful relationships in such a short time. everyone is interested in the american and i’m happy to oblige. here’s an email i got from one of the people i went out to karaoke with the other day. isn’t it wonderful?
“Ciao Jon!!!
I'm already your mail and i try reply for u 'cause i haven't more free time.
I'm very honour and happy when i met you today. 'cause i always wish to have relations with foreign people so that improve my language.
How do u feel when u go out with us? And at this time u doing?
When u have many free time u can go up net and chat with me. From 21:00 to 22:30 on yahoo messenger, in monday,wednesday,friday.
See u saturday morning at 7:00 o'clock.and t foget write to me when u have free time.
Goodnight, and have more beautiful dreams.
Miss u everytime......”
why are we all so afraid to say what we mean? maybe, no, probably, this guy didn’t have any idea what he was saying but it was so wonderful to get an email from someone wishing that i, “have more beautiful dreams” and that he, “miss u everytime.” blunt but wonderful, honest and innocent.
email people what you really think! tell the world the truth! hope that people have more and more beautiful dreams! what a wonderful thing to wish for.
well, i truly hope that everyone has magical daydreams and can sit back in their office and look up at the sky and think about this crazy world spinning through the universe. i hope that everyone can lay down at night in a warm bed and dream about sailing on a warm and windy night. i hope you all wake up and smile at yourself in the mirror. i hope you all can feel yourselves breath and notice your tongue in your mouth! oh, eat good foor, hug people often and live, live, live!