-^-for posterity-^-

i continue with this insanity:

dear family, my fate has been sealed these last few days. i have been wading through my thoughts regarding leaving and i find myself, at times, neck deep. these times are remedied, however. i continue to trudge on.

to show myself that leaving this country is a good idea, i decided to watch MTV and MTV2. if anyone wants to feel poorly about how they appear, these modes of communication are the way to go. by calling them modes of communication, i am giving them too much credit. the word "communication" implies (in my interpretation) that there are two parties at work. these are nothing more than opinion and mood shapers. i watched the beautiful people strut around and sing songs that have less than no meaning. the mindlessness of the whole process made time slip by quickly. much too quickly.
also, it must be terrible to be famous. looking at life as infinite we can see that their fame is doomed to failure. they are doomed to fall off of their pedestal either due to death or a career ending incident. (at least i would view fame this way) since they are not changing anything for the better, the whole point of being famous is narcissistic. therefore, since it is inevitable that they are to fall, the famous person must make the most of the situation. i would end up thinking only about my fall and not worrying about the real point of my fame: love-of-self. finally, i could never be famous because i would end up focusing on the selfish, finite nature of my fame. i also could never love myself so thoroughly.
well, these initial webpost things are nothing more than ramblings to assert myself on this page. i am claiming my territory: back off. if anyone else wants one of these things they can easily have one. this is for family and friends to help them understand my experiences in vietnam. since i have yet to travel there, this page is doomed to be a grouping of tragic thoughts. *sigh*