-^-for posterity-^-

i realize that most things coming from this webpage are self-centered in nature. how does one take something that was originally meant to be personal and censor it for the consumption of others while retaining integrity?

how do i reconcile my past with the past of others? how do i not stand alone, not stand labeled? how do i be a better person, a helpful and peaceful person when most of the time i'm not even sure what 'better' even is?

what do i do when people come to me and ask for advice when i have none? why does it feel like the transition to adulthood is something i was not prepared for? why does it all feel so ephemeral?

why does this seem like a childish cry for help when it really isn't meant to be?

i don't know and, the beauty of it all is that none of us can stop this life, this existence. we can try to shape it, alter it, but there is no way for us to stop the eternal churn and chug of our life. it bounces along like a boulder down a hill, sometimes this way, sometimes that way, always pounding ahead.

we are studying 'gilgamesh' in class and we will talk about how we deal with mortality.